I felt poor. I know, in comparison to most of the world, I'm rich. But how I felt? Poor. Lacking. Deprived.
I hated feeling this way. I spent much of the day pondering ways I could generate income. Surely there was a job out there, one I would love that would provide a steady cash flow to wipe away the sense of lack I felt. The day ended in utter frustration and no direction towards employment.
Then it hit me. I have a roof over my head. And a cozy "nest" to live in. I have a closet of clothes, and ample food in the cupboards. I am blessed with good health to enjoy life.
And people! I have a loving husband, such a good man. I have grown children and grandchildren who fill my heart to overflowing. My husband and I still have parents, and mine live only feet away from our door. I am blessed with some of the dearest friends a girl could want. And there's our faithful dog, my sweet companion during the day.
I have purpose. I have dreams. I have interests I am passionate about. The list seemed endless.
Yet there remained this sense of lack. I still felt poor, less than, because our bank account wasn't what I thought it should be.
Then I realized. I have the fullness of God to whatever measure I desire. I can be as filled with Him as I desire. There is NO limit to His presence, His power, and His purpose and plans except what I put on them. If I can be completely filled, completely known by GOD, I realize. I AM RICH. Beyond measure. No amount of money can hold a candle to such wealth.
Walking closer to Him, my feelings of lack prove false. I am rich!
God's economy, it adds up to wealth that lasts forever. I can have Him to the fullest measure I desire. Rich beyond my wildest dreams.
I no longer feel so poor.
"I ASK THAT YOU'LL KNOW THE LOVE OF CHRIST THAT IS BEYOND KNOWLEDGE SO THAT YOU WILL BE FILLED ENTIRELY WITH THE FULLNESS OF GOD."
"YOU ARE FAMILIAR WITH THE GENEROSITY OF OUR MASTER, JESUS CHRIST. RICH AS HE WAS, HE GAVE IT ALL AWAY FOR US -- IN ONE STROKE HE BECAME POOR AND WE BECAME RICH."
~2 Corinthians 8:9, The Message
Copyright 2015 by Julie Cowell.