"Be still and know that I am God." ~Psalm 46:10
Do you ever notice how the best and the worst often go hand in hand? Boy, do I wrestle with this. The hard seasons ~ those gut-wrenching paths ~ I want them done. Over. I want out. A quick fix. A solution, because isn't that what we need when we are faced with mounting problems?
When it doesn't come? There is always a choice before me. Kick and scream, let the clouds of discouragement and depression engulf me. Or stop. BE STILL. And trust that God in His infinite wisdom is up to something. Remind myself ~ He is always good. And His plans and His ways are always best, always to benefit and not harm us.
Too often I've taken that first path. And boy, does it take its toll. It doesn't solve anything. In fact, it often ushers in a whole new set of problems and frustrations. That path of self-sufficiency pulls me down, and places weights on my heart and mind I was never designed to carry.
The times when I've managed to get myself onto the road of trust, those weights don't find a resting place in me. Being still ~ choosing not to fret, worry, and play the card of problem-solver ~ it triggers a shift. The weight of responsibility I clung to, trying to work it out in my own strength and wisdom, is picked up. The strong, wise, and capable hands of God reach down and grab hold. And somehow ~ somehow ~ He does a work that aligns with His good purposes and plans.
Why don't I run to that second road if I know He is waiting there to carry all my burdens and problems? Because honestly, it doesn't always feel good. Or look pretty. Sometimes, what He allows me to experience on that road called Trust ushers in the polar opposite of what I desire. And I wonder, did He even bother to show up? Is He really carrying all those weights? Has he forgotten me and mine, and the messy-painful circumstances we are in? Does He not care? Is He punishing me?
All those thoughts, they arise from my burning desire to still be in control...at least to some degree. After all, this is my life. Surely I have valuable input!
Here I sit, in another season of emotions and events I don't want. Don't like! And the choice stands before me. Cling to my wishes, my plans, and the illusion of being even a little bit in control. Or BE STILL. Give it to Him. And trust that, no matter the outcome, He is always good, and His plans are always best. Even when it doesn't feel that way.
BE STILL. Yes, this is the path I want to stay on. I have learned the hard way. My plans, my efforts ~ they always fall short of the good work He wants to do. And whether I like it or not, there's this truth. His best often comes cloaked in what feels worst.
BE STILL. He's got this. Rest in His presence, His purposes, His good plans. And trust Him, believing it's all going to unfold according to His divine and loving plan.
"We know that in all things God works for good with those who love him, those whom he has called according to his purpose." ~Romans 8:28